All day
Staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night
Hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something
Hold on
I'm feeling like I'm headed for a
Breakdown
I don't know why
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WziA88-n02k
Staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night
Hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something
Hold on
I'm feeling like I'm headed for a
Breakdown
I don't know why
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WziA88-n02k
Do you know these words because of Matchbox 20 or because you have lived those words?
When this song was first released I was going through some very hard times and my depression was at its worse. I related to this song in so many ways.
I wasn't crazy but I was a little unwell.
I couldnt understand my feelings and why I was always crying. I had lost all control of my emotions and felt like I had nothing to offer anyone. It took me alot of work to lift myself out of the hole I felt I was in and I swore I would never sink that low again.
When this song was first released I was going through some very hard times and my depression was at its worse. I related to this song in so many ways.
I wasn't crazy but I was a little unwell.
I couldnt understand my feelings and why I was always crying. I had lost all control of my emotions and felt like I had nothing to offer anyone. It took me alot of work to lift myself out of the hole I felt I was in and I swore I would never sink that low again.
Over the years I have had ups and downs. I went through periods when I was doing well but then a change of home and environment set me back and I didnt cope. It is very hard to understand when you have not lived with depression. I have lived with it most of my life, as early as my teens and It was never picked up. Not even when I had my first son and had all the signs of post natal depression. Back then it was rarely known but looking back now I had all the signs.
Nearly 5 years ago I was introduced to Secondlife and what a rollercoaster it has been. Some occassions I wish I had never found it and some I am so grateful I did.
I have met some wonderful people who have and still do support me and people who I have supported and helped through some rough times.
What amazed me though is how many people I have met in SL who suffer depression. Everyone comes to SL for their own reasons and the wonderful thing I found was I could be me. I didnt have a title of mum, wife, cook, football mum or school helper, I was just Ally.
I have met some wonderful people who have and still do support me and people who I have supported and helped through some rough times.
What amazed me though is how many people I have met in SL who suffer depression. Everyone comes to SL for their own reasons and the wonderful thing I found was I could be me. I didnt have a title of mum, wife, cook, football mum or school helper, I was just Ally.
The downside for me is I take on others pain and hurt and I want to see everyone happy. Secondlife has its negatives and with drama and griefers it can definitly effect ones depression. I know I have cried many times and I use my props and poses and photos occassionally to help express how I feel.
Blogging has also opened up doors for me to express those feelings.
Something fantastic about SL is the amount of fundraising and rallying for real illnesses and tragedies in our lives. Doesn't the thought of people from all over the world coming together just make this an amazing accomplishment?
Blogging has also opened up doors for me to express those feelings.
Something fantastic about SL is the amount of fundraising and rallying for real illnesses and tragedies in our lives. Doesn't the thought of people from all over the world coming together just make this an amazing accomplishment?
I love being able to use my blogging to help promote and support awesome events and fundraisers in SL .
When I was approached by
Joshuan Banx
after a previous blog, I was honoured and touched by his words and I am proud to be now be an advocate with him in promoting Mental Health Awareness.
When I was approached by
Joshuan Banx
after a previous blog, I was honoured and touched by his words and I am proud to be now be an advocate with him in promoting Mental Health Awareness.
I felt this was a great opportunity to show off the talent of another creative lady. As you know I love Firebird Designs and Dalriada amazes me with her talent and energies! When she told me about this gorgeous custom made suit I wanted it! As you can see it is stylish, classy and sexy.
What you cant see is the amount of choices this outfit offers.
This gorgeous Female Pants Suit comes in 5 sizes and offers 3 styles of choice. Mesh Jacket, mesh pants, open collar, closed collar - ribbon optional and the shirt comes in 8 colours! Fitmesh is included. I absolutely love this and something I would wear alot. Its sophisticated and still sexy. You can grab this custom made suit at the Fashion stars salesroom which opens in a few days.
So make sure you check it out.
http://maps.secondlife.com/secondlife/FashionStars/198/100/24
If you do suffer depression or think you may please seek a professional and get the right help and support you need. There is no shame in asking for help and like other illnesses depression is just that, an illness. Please check the internet or your family doctor for support groups in your country and feel free to join the group Inspirational Mental Health inworld where you will find support and understanding.
loads of hugs
Ally
What you cant see is the amount of choices this outfit offers.
This gorgeous Female Pants Suit comes in 5 sizes and offers 3 styles of choice. Mesh Jacket, mesh pants, open collar, closed collar - ribbon optional and the shirt comes in 8 colours! Fitmesh is included. I absolutely love this and something I would wear alot. Its sophisticated and still sexy. You can grab this custom made suit at the Fashion stars salesroom which opens in a few days.
So make sure you check it out.
http://maps.secondlife.com/secondlife/FashionStars/198/100/24
If you do suffer depression or think you may please seek a professional and get the right help and support you need. There is no shame in asking for help and like other illnesses depression is just that, an illness. Please check the internet or your family doctor for support groups in your country and feel free to join the group Inspirational Mental Health inworld where you will find support and understanding.
loads of hugs
Ally